This Is Me

Written In The Stars

Posted on June 8, 2022

I wanted to explore some thoughts I had been having quite frequently this past week or so. I didn’t feel comfortable navigating these kinds of thoughts on my own. In the past when I ‘ve tried I always ended up spiraling out of control and making things worse for myself.... [Read More]

Tags: sam stars zee family

Expectations

Posted on June 7, 2022

We are more hurt by our own expectations of others than the by their actions [Read More]

Tags: me expectations hurt

Trust The Process

Posted on June 4, 2022

This whole process’s has been horrible and I wouldn’t wish this kind of pain and suffering on anyone for any reason. WHich is why no matter how much I process, how many feeling I work through, I still can’t even remotely understand one part of all this. How did Sam... [Read More]

Tags: sam horrible inhumane

Trouble Writing

Posted on June 3, 2022

I’ve been struggling to post anything the past few days, it’s not that I don’t have a lot to say and process because I do. I have been feeling crappy about myself and everything that has happened. I know I’m not my mistakes and I’m not beating myself up about... [Read More]

Tags: write post stuck

From The Beginning

Posted on June 2, 2022

I was thinking about how Sam and I started our relationship, I had a flood of memories come back. [Read More]

Tags: sam self-loathing predictions

Lost

Posted on June 1, 2022

Almost 8 months later and I feel like I am getting worse not better, how did I end up here? How in the world did I get myself into this kind of situation? Why\how could anyone behave the way Sam has? What in the world could she be thinking? [Read More]

Tags: sam lost tired empty

Ever be ok again?

Posted on May 31, 2022

Strip everything else away, forget the fights, forget blame, forget the mistakes and the should and could haves. How do I ever find my way back, move past or even accept things when the only truth I know for sure is, [Read More]

Tags: sam confused hurt

Untitled Mess

Posted on May 30, 2022

I’m not sure If I will keep this post up, it’s not very helpful right now. [Read More]

Tags: sam blind reality distortion

Flowers

Posted on May 29, 2022

Flowers by Lauren Spencer-Smith [Read More]

Tags: sam lies bullshit flower

Bus Driver

Posted on May 29, 2022

I heard a song on my walk, that I had never heard before, I could’t think of hearing any song even remotely close to it. It’s not a breakup song, it’s so much more than that, It’s a reality check. I don’t ever remember a song making me feel this... [Read More]

Tags: sam save lies bus