Self Deception

Posted on May 28, 2022

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I mentioned to zee that I had this odd feeling that I would hear from Sam again. I had no reason for thinking that I would hear from Sam. The more I thought about it the more I realized something. [Read More]
Tags: zee mislead unsure fail

As Long As

Posted on May 26, 2022

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The phrase “As long as “, is something i have always believed in, I don’t know where I learned it, and I can’t remember anyone saying it to to me. It’s something that allowed me to move pass my mistakes and try again, it allowed me to forgive others and... [Read More]
Tags: sam zee long honest trying

Deep End of The Pool

Posted on May 24, 2022

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I feel as though my psyche fractured into two pieces, it didn’t fracture into two separate and equal parts. it’s more like a highway, with each piece being the direction the highway runs. I can take any number of ways, but there are only ever 2 distinct destinations and I... [Read More]
Tags: zee deep vulnerable honest

Fireworks

Posted on May 23, 2022

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I went to the beaches to watch the fireworks by myself tonight. It was a huge revelation for me. I don’t think I knew just how much of my life I had to rebuild, I lost everything, including who I thought I was. Seeing all kinds of couples cuddled together... [Read More]
Tags: victoria beach fireworks sad

40 Days till hell week!

Posted on May 22, 2022

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40 days until this summers cottage vacation, it also happens to fall on what would have been Sam and my 5 yr anniversary. I can’t remember being so scared of something I would normally be excited for. This will be the 4th year we have done it, every single year... [Read More]
Tags: hell 5yrs anniversary cottage

Went To The Movies

Posted on May 21, 2022

Do you ever feel like you are being punished excessively and you really should know why, but you don’t? I went to see “Dr Strange: Into the Multiverse”, It only took 10 min to regret going to see the movie. They reveal the motivation for the 2 main characters and... [Read More]
Tags: movie punish wtf sad

Immature or Vulnerable

Posted on May 20, 2022

Most of my life I didn’t know who, what or even how I could count on to be there for me. I’ve always heard that men are less emotional and struggle to share their emotions. I’ve always been an emotional guy, right or wrong I use my emotions\feelings as my... [Read More]
Tags: immature vulnerable honest