A good Place

Posted on June 24, 2022

The Trauma Triangle I’m sure I heard that from someplace, but it gave me some of the missing pieces I was looking for. None of the terms I had been given really fit on on their own, but when you ses them as a triangle it suddenly makes a lot... [Read More]
Tags: healing ok working

The Letter

Posted on June 23, 2022

I was lucky enough to have one more session with Eleven today, it was bitter sweet. We laughed and talked for close to 2 hours it was a great bookend to our adventure together. In typical El fashion she left with me something to sink my teeth into, she asked... [Read More]
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Angels

Posted on June 22, 2022

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Today I have my last meeting with both of my angels. I’m sad and I feel like I am losing my constant but I am so thankful to both of them. I have no idea where I would be without them. [Read More]
Tags: EL Zee Angels

Scuba Gear

Posted on June 21, 2022

Today I started packing for hell week, I started with our scuba gear. I waited on doing it as along as I could, but I have to safety check and get some things fixed. I knew it was going to be hard but it was a lot harder than I... [Read More]
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Sour Jagged Little Pill

Posted on June 20, 2022

I watched Olivia Rodrigo’s making of her album, it blows me away that a little kid can write like that. Not just that either, that she felt a lof of the same feelings I have and have struggled with, Her album Sour reminds me a lot of Alanis Morissette Jagged... [Read More]
Tags: relate experience not alone

Unexpected Feelings

Posted on June 19, 2022

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All of a sudden I was overcome with sadness, It took me a minute to understand what was going on, why I was feeling so sad. I realized it was Father’s Day and while I am not a father, I felt like I had lost my last chance to have... [Read More]
Tags: sam father missed unexpected

Imposter Syndrome

Posted on June 16, 2022

A lot of the time I struggle with the words I am saying, for some reason I have trouble believing what I am saying. It’s not that I don’t mean what I am saying, I do but it feels almost like I am faking it, it doesn’t feel sincere to... [Read More]
Tags: me fake imposter self-love

You Have To Earn It

Posted on June 15, 2022

My Love’s the type of thing that you have to earn When you’ve earned it you won’t need it I’m not going to give you love just because I know you want me to If you want Love then the Loves gotta come from you [Read More]
Tags: sam love boundary earn self-love

Black, Red, Blue Pills

Posted on June 9, 2022

I’ve spent a lot of time doing research and self improvement but one thing I have come across is these idiots that talk about black, red and blue pills or these pickup artists. I didn’t really think people took it seriously but apparently people live by it. That’s one thing... [Read More]
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