Thought I was Done With This Shit

Posted on August 8, 2022

I know the healing process is never a straight line, but I thought I was done with this $h1t. I have been doing good and moving forward, I understand so much about why I felt and acted certain ways, I’ve let go of trying to understand what and why Sam... [Read More]
Tags: done shit sad

No Excuses

Posted on August 6, 2022

These past few days have been so f-ing hard, I’ve spent a lot of time going over things that happened between Me and Sam. This time I wasn’t considering what she did or what she said, I was solely focused on my actions and my emotions. [Read More]
Tags: zombie

Responsibility

Posted on August 2, 2022

I always prided myself on the fact that with Sam I was always open and honest with her, I never wanted to hide anything from her. I did my best so when I made a mistake (or was a complete ass) , I owned up, took responsibility and did my... [Read More]
Tags: responsibility taken given

Flashbacks

Posted on August 1, 2022

July was a very unexpected month, things changed a lot for me. Yet sometimes I have flashbacks and I remember things that I had either blocked out or forgotten. I still stand by my belief that neither Sam or I did bad things to each other on purpose, I know... [Read More]
Tags: zombie

Holding On

Posted on July 31, 2022

I’m not sure it was a conscience decision or an emotional decision but shortly after Sam left I decided that I would fight for us for 6 months. That may sound extreme to some and it probably was but I truly loved her and wanted to work it out. I... [Read More]
Tags: committed 6 months

Not Communicating

Posted on July 30, 2022

Both Sam and I failed at this one, there are the obvious reasons for this. For me I didn’t understand and sometimes was completely unaware of my feelings or emotions. For Sam it was likely she didn’t know how to communicate or how important it was that she shared her... [Read More]
Tags: communicate

Slippery Slope

Posted on July 29, 2022

This is the hardest one for me, I am so ashamed of things that I did and said. The hardest part to this was I didn’t even see things escalating the way they were, until it was too late. Let me explain… [Read More]
Tags: sam me shame bad