Love and Thunder
I’m not talking about the movie, I haven’t see it, not sure I will bother either.
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11 Months
Today is 11 months since Sam left…
It’s a strange feeling, part of me is heartbroken, part of me is relieved, part of me missies her like crazy, part of me wants to thank her for getting me out of that hell.
Clinical Assessment
In a couple days I have my assessment with the major mental health organization in my city, I asked my GP to refer me for an assessment close to 10 months ago. In a weird way I’m glad that it took so long, I’m changed so much since then, I...
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Last Day At The Cottage
It’s the last day at the cottage, I;ve had a great time. It wasn’t the nicest place I;ve been and the water was great for swimming but terrible for diving. We’re all heading home later today and that’s the end of my vacations for the year.
Expected but still surprised
I was tempted to delete this because as it turns out I was wrong about all of this, Sam didn’t do anything. I’m leaving the post up because I want to show that even after all my growth I still make mistakes and jump to conclusions. It’s ok to be...
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Stay The Course
I have been lucky enough to go away multiple times this summer, I’ve been on vacation for close to a month when you add it all up. I wanted to make sure that even while I was on vacation I continued with my therapy. What I have found works, is...
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Locks and Dams
We went to the see the locks and teh dam’s today, I wouldn’t say that I was triggered, maybe a bit sad, I wished things were different but that was out of my control. I am enjoying life the best I can with the people in my life right now....
Very Anxious
Yesterday was difficult to say the least, I hoped that after a good nights sleep I would feel better and a lot less emotional. This morning I woke up and I felt extremely anxious, all I wanted to do was leave and go home. I have been fighting that feeling...
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Cottage 2 - Triggered
I was getting ready to leave for the cottage, I was doing the dishes and I had a flashback of when Sam would do the dishes. Sam would often put knives in the draining board sharp side up, I would end up poking myself and getting mad at Sam. That’s...
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Hard Realizations
I was caught off guard when my phone rang, I had forgotten that Zee and I had an earlier session today. Normally I have tings pre planned that I want to talk about usually things that I felt or experienced since our last session, but today I wasn’t prepared so...
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