Needs
I heard this on the youtube channel How To AdHD
“I believe that you have the greater need right now, and I don’t want to neglect mine, so what should we do?”
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Alexithymia
I came across the term alexithymia, which basically is that you cannot either express or identify your emotions. It’s not a disorder more of a trait, but it’s something that I struggled with for a long time. Until VERY recently I was unaware of what I felt a lot of...
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Self Doubt
I heard this quote that really impacted me.
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Borderline
It’s still unclear if I qualify clinically for Borderline Personality Disorder or not, I absolutely have strong BPD tendencies. Over the past month since I had my assessment, I’ve bounced back and forth trying to understand where I fit. I found a few good resource that helped me understand that...
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This Way
It’s not fair that your not around
This is when the feeling sinks in, I don’t wanna miss you like this
Come back, be here
I don’t wanna need you this way
Come back, be here
Part Of My Life
Sam has been and still is a huge part of my life, which blows my mind. It’s getting closer to a year and I still think about her multiple times a day, I am still trying to understand the whole relationship, talking it over with Zee and constantly trying to...
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Writing
I haven’t posted my the last month or two, but I have been writing the whole time. I am struggling to process all of this new information I’ve gotten; it’s a lot, a lot a lot…
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Haven't Changed
I haven’t seen or spoken to sam in close to a year and I still feel the same way about her. I don’t think that’s a good or bad thing, it’s just what is, I can;t control my emotions I can just control the way I respond to them. I’ve...
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Could It Have Been
I know that it takes two to build a relationship and two to destroy a relationship. Even knowing that, I, from time to time have had a thought come to mind. Was this all my fault? Did I do everything I could to push her away until she couldn’t take...
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Slash & Burn
For a long time I have felt like I am trying to renovate a house that is actively on fire. I am so tired from fighting to put the fire out that I start to renovating the building while it’s still on fire. I don’t know if that makes sense...
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