Extra Help

Posted on May 16, 2022

So much has happened with these past few weeks, all coming to a place where I could accept my situation. I guess I thought accepting it would make it easier but it hasn’t. I contacted Zee hoping for a session today, and of course hse said yes. I was very... [Read More]
Tags: zee help lost sad

Anxiety Wins Today

Posted on May 15, 2022

I have walked close to 80 km in the past 2 days, no matter how hard I tried I couldn’t get my anxiety under control. I felt so out of control, my mind wouldn’t stop. I just can’t stop thinking about her, I miss her like crazy. I don’t know... [Read More]
Tags: missing anxiety loss

Accepting, well kind of

Posted on May 13, 2022

I wasn’t aware how badly I was in denial, it’s well past 7 months and I have not heard a word from her, but for sone reason I was sure I would. I wasn’t being obtuse, I was protecting myself. The only thing I was sure of was I didn’t... [Read More]
Tags: story unforgivable protect

The stories we tell ourselves

Posted on May 12, 2022

I feel like a bag of sand, this past week was one of the harder weeks I have had. I’ve started to break through the stories I was telling myself. I had heard that sentiment many times, like most things it takes a while for it to sink in. I... [Read More]
Tags: unknown stories fear

Breakdown

Posted on May 11, 2022

I woke up in a panic attack in the middle of the night, I spent almost the full day like that. I couldn’t ground myself, I couldn’t stop crying, I couldn’t catch my breath. I was waiting for my session with El to start, and once I saw her I... [Read More]
Tags: breakdown loss sad

It's been 7 months

Posted on May 8, 2022

I’m finally getting to a place where I can accept that Sam doesn’t want me in her life. I’m sure smarter people would have figured it out a long time ago, but for me I never wanted this. I still don’t know how to fully accept something that I don’t... [Read More]
Tags: sam time loss heartbroken